I AM DYING…TO SELF
I mentioned in my last blog what God revealed to me at the beginning of the year about walking in my truth. I mentioned the truth not only hurt but it was also liberating to be walking in my new found freedom. My relationship with Christ is now being renewed, revived and restored.
The bible states, “…let the weak say I am strong (Joel 3: 10). Areas where I was once weak, I am now becoming strong …”And he said unto me … my strength is made perfect in weakness”. 2 Cor 12:9. NKJV
Speaking the truth from my heart to the Father, I thought it would be enough. If you know the Father well you would know that God is never finished with us.
I was reminded from Phil 1:6, “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion …” NIV.
My dying to self-started when my daughter and I got into a heated argument. This was the worst argument we ever had; tempers were flared, words were exchanged and insults thrown. As we both cooled down, I being the bigger person (well I am the parent after all) attempted to make peace.
My daughter who was sobbing was having none of it and in response, she said, “We keep going round in circles”. As the words was spoken the Holy Spirit told me “she’s right, cycles need to be broken”. (We have since made peace and we are on very good terms with each other). As I contemplated on the words that were said, something in my spirit shifted. I knew at that point it was time to change…it was time to DIE to SELF!
The bible states, in 2 Cor 5:17 AMP, “Therefore if anyone is in Christ [that is, grafted in, joined to Him by faith in Him as Saviour], he is a new creature [reborn and renewed by the Holy Spirit]; the old things [the previous moral and spiritual condition] have passed away. Behold, new things have come [because spiritual awakening brings a new life]”. Being honest with myself, I knew old habits had to die, mindset had to be renewed and attitude had to change. The cycles had to be broken.
That night I got on my knees and prayed ‘Father I need to die to self- enough is enough’. As the old self is dying away, bit by bit, stage by stage, going through the process of dying is not easy but as I work with God I can only trust that He will bring out the best out from me. I am after all a work in progress.
Watch this space till next time.
Aug 13, 2018, Robyn Reid-community Blogger